Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Through the Eyes of Life

It's been along time I didn't write something here.A few months ago, I decided to write a few words to encourage myself to keep my blog active but my body utility control me not to process any update.I'm currently having problem deleting all the sadness and problems.Insomnia was back.It all started since two weeks ago.I force myself to sleep but nothing seem work.I know worrying about tomorrow during the night is not a good idea and it could only makes the problem worse but I really can't stop worrying.Imagine the frustration of being awake in the night till morning.So last night,I prayed and kept on mumble to god.I wasn't expecting him to do anything about it.God bless!Last night is one of the night that I could sleep well.

I always thought I had been through the worst but apparently my cousin sickness takes more complicated process than what I had.One of the most painful moments for me was when I chatting with my cousin who was very, very close to me ever since we were a kid.She told me that she has stones near her liver.I don't know how serious is it but according to her doctor she needs to remove the stone and at the mean time she also needs to take medication to control her sickness.She has had high fever on and off.Her body became thin and weak since last year. She told me she wants to give up in life and keep on thinking negative in her fight.I hope through my comfort and positive encouragement she could think positively.

I can't stop my anger and fearful because of the things she had to go through.I tried to control those feelings and focus on the positive.What I can do now is to pray for her battling sickness and hope she gets her life on track soon cause I miss her so much.I know she is under alot of stress right now and hopefully her life can calm down and she can get well again.

This moments that make me realize how incredibly blessed I am.I know I wouldn’t be the person I am today without the influence of family members and friends.They are my dearest friends.Year 2009 is here.I hope everything could be going smooth and all the bad luck could be washed away like the melting snow.I wish everyone all the best for the New Years. and keep on living with the greatest in life.
 

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